I spent 42 years looking

42 years dreaming about it
42 years visualising it
42 years wondering when
42 years frustrated by love
42 years urning to be loved

42 years loosing myself looking for love

Until that day !

Until that amazing day !

Until that day I will never forget !

It was the day that changed my life forever
It was the day that my life shifted
It was the day that I became alive
It was the day my belief tank was overflowing
It was the day my soul was set on fire
It was the day my mind was set free
It was the day my heart was awakened
It was the day I truly opened up for the first time

What day is that ?

The day I surrendered to true love !
The day I accepted I could be loved !
The day I released myself to be loved !

It was the day I realised I was in love !

TOTALLY, COMPLETELY, UNAPOLOGETICALLY, PASSIONATELY, CRAZY IN LOVE !

Yep thats when my life changed, i changed, I was set FREE

I WAS IN LOVE FOR THE FIRST TIME ! FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE I LOVED ME !

I could never truly love another until I loved me. I see that now !
I could never believe in myself
I could never be open to surrendering to true love with a man
I could never allow a man to break down my walls i had put up to protect me
I could not release the shame, blame and guilt of my past that I carried around everyday

NOW I CAN AND NOW I DO !

I have stepped totally into my feminine with divine self love ! I have surrendered me. I know I am safe, safe to loved, safe to take down the walls, safe to take off the masks that hide my true self, safe to allow my heart to be open to love and give to another, safe to release the other world I was living in, this world was my past.

I CHOOSE SELF LOVE !
I CHOOSE ACCEPTANCE !

I CHOOSE ME !

Kisses, Leisa